Better Days Ahead

I'm a 45 year old woman who is on an adventure to discover the purpose in all the trials and tribulations I have gone through. As I'm trying to discover what James says, "Consider it nothing but joy my bretheren when you go through many trials, that the testing of your faith [through experience] produces endurance [leading to spiritual maturity, and inner peace]. 4 And let endurance have its perfect result and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfect and completely developed [in your faith], lacking in nothing.
I have two wonderful children and lost my husband Rob on April 19, 2014. I live in my father and step mother's home and was taking care of my step mother until she passed just recently on March 22nd. My father works away and is hardly even here. My 24 year old son who was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder moved back with us last year, but seems to be not suffering delusions currently. My 15 year old daughter was in and out of behavioral health programs last year and failed 7th grade. We had quite a fight with the school who took us to truancy court for her absences. We now have more peace because she is home schooling online with a self-pace school. I am currently questioning what I should do to support my family, but wasn't able to due to caring for my sick stepmother. I have a dream to one day be self-employed. I just feel I need to get through the hurdles that seem to keep me back. So That is what this blog is about. I'm trying to find out what fears and mindsets keep me bound and keep me from pursuing my dreams. I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

His Mercies are new every morning

I have been fighting hoplessness in my situation.  My husband and I are fighting discouragement.  He has been told they need to replace both his hips and do carple tunnel surgery and this will be a year December.  He has slowly become depressed and somedays bearly gets out of bed.  It reminds me of that commercial that says depression hurts everyone.  I fight every day to hold my head up and not allow myself to sink.  There is hope in Jesus Christ.  I have been holding onto Isaiah 30:18  "And therefore the Lord [earnestly] waits [expecting, looking, and longing] to be gracious to you; and therefore He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you and show loving-kindness to you.  For the Lord is a God of justice.  Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) are all those who [earnestly] wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him [for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy and His matchless, unbroken companionship]!  My bible is an amplified and it only reads this way in this translation.  I also love the translation of John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you: My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.  Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled]."  I have quoted that last part to myself before and I can do it again.  Robin stop allowing yourself to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled you can minister to people.  I sometimes become fearful when it comes to standing before people and interceeding in prayer.  I come against the spirit of fear.  I can quote and walk in Isaiah 61 This scripture when I quote it to myself becomes activing and energizes me to minister.  I don't look to myself or my ability I only look to Jesus the author and finisher of my faith.  Well had a great uplifting prayer night.  I was more energized after leaving but now I'm becoming weary.  I have hope and pray I can be a help to another on my journey.  Well until next blog God Loves you and so do I.

1 comment:

  1. Keep your head up girl. I will look to the hills from which cometh my help. My help comes from the Lord. I will yet praise my God. Why are you cast down oh my soul look to God who is the lifter of your countenance. I love you. God has a great plan for you. If nobody will encourage you. Encourage yourself in the Lord!! This is the day the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it.